Hata Sawako’s Blog Entry: Graduation Announcement

Hata Sawako’s Blog Entry: 

皆さんこんばんは、秦佐和子です。

Good evening, this is Hata Sawako.

本日のチームK2のラムネの飲み方公演にて
三月いっぱいでSKE48を卒業することを
発表させて頂きました。

Today, during the Team K2 Ramune no Nomi Kataperformance, I announced that I would graduate SKE48 at the end of this month. 

卒業のことは2月からずっとお話をしていたのですが、
簡単に決められることもでもなく、
結果的にこんなに日数が少なくなってからの
発表となってしまい、申し訳ありません。

I have been in discussion regarding my graduation since February, but I had been unable to make my mind up easily, and the result had been an announcement so close to the actual date. I am truly sorry. 

きっかけらしい何かがあったわけではないのですが、
今想えばいつからか自分の中では決め始めていたのかも
しれないと、今想い返せばそんな気がします。
いつかは卒業しなければならないのだとは
想っていました。
There was not a specific occurrence that had led me to make this decision, but looking back I feel that there was a part of me that had started to make this decision, looking back on it now I think that was what happened. I knew that I would have to graduate sometime. 

けれど前はそれはSKEとして事務所に入って、なんて
想っていたのですが、SKEの中で有り難いことに
色々な声のお仕事を頂いて、その上で
自分の力不足、今のままでは声優になんて
とてもなれないと言う現実をつよく感じていました。
漠然とこのままだと、数年後には皆さんと
一生さよならするときが来てしまうなと。
もちろんSKEの中から素晴らしい才能を持って、
将来声優として羽ばたいていくメンバーも
いるでしょうし、その可能性がSKEにはあると想っています。

However before this I thought that I would join an agency through being in SKE, however, thankfully SKE had given me an opportunity to work with my voice, and through this I found out about my inability, the truth that my talents at the moment were insufficient to succeed as a voice actress. I understood that if I carry on at this level, I would have to say good bye to everyone for good sometime. Of course I believe that someone does have the talent to become a voice actress in SKE48, and some members will be able to spread their wings as a voice actress in the future.

ただ私はその子にはなれなかった。
自分自身の責任です。
だからその持っていない才能の分をもう一度一から
勉強し直して、改めて声優の道を目指すことを決めました。
少し期間が空いてでも、皆さんが私に飽きるその時まで
一緒に皆さんといたいと。
それはSKEに入って2度目の覚悟でした。

However I could not become that girl. It was my own fault. So in place of the talent that I do not have, I would like to being my studies from one, and begin my road towards becoming a voice actress once again. Even if a period of hiatus does happen, until everyone becomes tired of me, I would like to stay by everybody’s side. That was my second resolution I had made having entered SKE.

一つ目はチームK2の昇格と同時にお気づきの方も

多いかと想いますが、歯列矯正を始めるために
歯医者さんに行きました。
ずっと悩んでいた歯列矯正声優になるには必要のないことですし、
滑舌のこともあり、ずっと悩んでいたのですが、
この時、SKEでやっていく覚悟をしたのです。
それからしばらくして器具が装着され、
あっという間に今までのように話せなくなりました。

The first thing had been when I was out into Team K2, I think some may have noticed but at the same period as that, I had been going to the dentist to have braces put in my teeth. I had been worrying about putting in braces, as it had nothing to do with my voice acting career, and because of the inability to speak properly with braces in, I had become very worried. I had then made the decision to commit to SKE. After that, the braces were put in place, and I had begun to not be able to speak as I had been able to before.

舌やうち頬がえぐれ、血を流しながら握手会をしたのは
今となってはもう良い想い出ですが、
ちょとそのころに0048が決まったのは皮肉でした。
大好きだったAKB0048、でも私にとってすごく辛かった。
自分で聴いて、まともに自分が話せていないことは
痛感していましたし、何より自分の滑舌がもどかしく
すごく苦しかったです。
なにより作品に、鈴子ちゃんに申し訳なくって、
いつも私がやってごめんねって、そう想っていました。

My tongue and the inside of my mouth started to become cut, and being at the hand shake events with blood in my mouth, has now become a good memory of the past, but it was ironically the same period in which my 0048 career was decided. I loved 0048 very much, but for me it had been a painful time as well. Having heard it for myself, I fully recognised that I had not been able to speak properly, and I had been very frustrated with myself. Above all, I felt remorseful towards the anime, and to Suzuko-chan. I always thought to her that I was sorry that I had to play her voice. 

声優として成長するスタートラインにもたてなかった。
何度も後悔した歯列矯正も、もうすぐ取れるということも
不思議なタイミングなのかな、なんて想います。
やっとスタートラインにたてるかもしれません。
とは言ってもどうなるか外してみないと
分からないのですが。
それでも私につきあってくれた鈴子ちゃんに恥じない自分で
帰ってこられるように、頑張ります。

I had not been able to stand on the start line to grow as a voice actress. The braces that I had regretted putting on so many times, is now about to come off. Is this a consequence, I think. I might be able to stand on the start line, after so many years. Having said this, I don’t know what will happen unless the race begins. But I would like to return as someone that does not feel ashamed to Suzuko-chan, that had stuck with me for so long. 

発表の時もお話しさせていただきましたが、
私にとってSKEは夢へと歩き続けさせてくれた
橋のような存在でした。
今、その橋を渡りきって一人で歩き出すときが
来たのだと想います。

I had said this during the time of the announcement but for me SKE was not a place where I would fulfil my dream, but where I would be able to begin walking this journey towards my dream. I believe that I have crossed that bridge and it is time for me to start the journey on my own. 

今まで私を支え続けてくださった皆さん、
本当にありがとうございます。
SKEでの一番の宝物の一つが皆さんと
お会いできたことです。
いつか皆さんに一日に早くおかえりって言っていただけますように。

To those whom had continued to support me, thank you very much. My treasure of being in SKE had been that I was able to meet all of you. I would like to become a kind of person for people to be able to say ‘welcome back’. 


三月の終わりまで、残り少ない日々ではありますが、
よろしくお願いします。

Please continue your support for me, although the days are limited, to the end of March. 


秦佐和子
Hata Sawako

ううん、ちゃんと気持ちを書くって難しい。
でもそれだけの想いが残るくらいの日々でしたし、
決断だったのかな、と想います。

Ahh, it’s hard to write my emotions. But I believe it has been such days that I am able to have all these emotions, and make this decision.

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